2ww and nervous breakdowns

The lovely 2WW. Lovely limbo-land.

My friend also going through it all, who even ended up having the same transfer day as me, mentioned that someone said aches in the tummy area can mean implantation. As much as I tried not to let it, this inevitably made me think 'Ah! A sign!' every time I had a twinge. Regardless of the fact that I had my insides flushed several times last week - enough to make anyone twinge. Boobs sore as well. And yesterday I suddenly got all weak in town.

Signs, or recovery?

And, as if the 2WW wasn't enough to contend with, H seems to be having some sort of nervous breakdown too. Totally flipped out this weekend, twice. Ranting, raving, making no sense. First time we laughed it off and moved on. Then it happened all over again a day later. It seems he is an unreachable bundle of stress and anxiety and just can't cope any more.

I don't think he can help it. That's the worst. I can't be angry with him. There's no point. Explains why I have found him so unsupportive this IVF time around. He has been barely hanging on. Thing is I don't know how to help him either.

Have also let myself succumb to a coffee. Have been pretty good. I don't think I have ever yearned so much for a vodka shot as I did yesterday but I settled for nice caffeine free Rooibus tea.